Actually managed to wash a bunch of dishes, listening to the Smiths, but "Ask" came on and I had to stop, oh fuck. Doing laundry also, considering repairing the range fan. Been feeling unable to leave the house much of the time, interacting with others has gotten frightening again, wondering how long that will last, past experience suggests 2-3 years, shit.

Trying to work my way back into hobbies that don't involve being around people, reading has been nice, too scattered to do that a lot of the time though, also feel like I should be doing something productive, however futile that might be. Hard to find time to work things in between work and being a batty emotional cripple, sigh.