Maybe it's kind of odd to find yourself hoping that people you care about can maintain their resentment and hostility toward you, keeps happening regardless. It worries me that I don't seem a very plausible target, more than worries, actually, it's been keeping me up at night.

Need to go get toilet paper, was thinking about going to Target, as they often have good deals on the stuff, got to thinking about the board games section & started crying. Guess I'll go somewhere else, don't need a reputation as the big, scary guy who cries at Target. Ah fuck it, I'll just go to Target.

Anybody need anything?