Don't know why I still allow myself to be disappointed by people or why I'm surprised when it happens, but when it does, it's as though a light has been switched off & I no longer see them as fully human. Sometimes it gets better again, but not usually. I realize that people not living up to my fairly arbitrary standards is not a good reason for me to lose all empathy for them, but that's what happens. I generally feel like shit about it, but that's what happens.