So damn tired, still can't sleep.

People want lies, want to be lied to. Not any good at that. Oh, I'm quite adept at lying, just not about the things people want to be lied to about. For somebody who's very happy to just do what other people want, it's a bit of a problem. Anyway, just not any good at it, something I'm stuck dealing with, others can deal with it or not, just as they please. Really, I understand perfectly.

Not everything, but probably more than you'd expect.

Been treated to an experience that had every appearance of being designed to maximize the suffering of all involved. Don't for a moment imagine it was intentionally or consciously so designed, pretty sure it was so designed nonetheless. Mental illness can be a very disturbing thing, sometimes people really need pain and to cause pain in others, just how it is. I have a tendency to unusually lucid and intense emotional pain, ideal subject, glad to be of service. Quite honestly.

Going to try to sleep. Love ya.