Having things to do that seemed intrinsically & straightforwardly worthwhile was a strange experience, anyway my opportunity to do those things was taken away & I'm back to needing to talk myself into doing much of anything. That's harder now for a variety of reasons, things seem less worthwhile by contrast, have been badly hurt, etc., etc. It was never particularly easy, now it's harder.

It's pretty obvious that I should just be looking for other things to do that seem similarly worthwhile, just not up to it, maybe later. Maybe I'll get lucky & they'll find me. Not counting on it.