Sitting in Southwest Harbor Public Library with T, each in our own little Internet wonderland, she looking up zips for postcards, sending birthday emails, me doing this.

Been rainy & gray since yesterday, still having a nice time, some pretty nasty bouts of sadness, having toy shopping make me sad is particularly horrible, one of my favorite activities, initimations of a world governed by affection, intelligence, whimsy. I suppose the fact that the real one isn't is quite enough to be sad about.

Just had some blueberry pancakes. Feeling very worried. Might go swimming later if it warms up.