Painfully exhausted, still can't sleep. Think I've gotten slightly less than ten hours in since Sunday, not good. Have had extremely frightening dreams when asleep, thinking about them a lot when awake. Sedative might be nice, don't work reliably anyway, sigh.

When I was younger & this happened, it wasn't nearly as bad, got a little loopy, but that was sort of fun, was much more physically resilient. Feel really, really sick.

Peretz has been very good about keeping me company.