It's funny to have had conversations with someone that had such profound effects on me that that person doesn't remember because of having been in a dream state at the time. Think about them a lot. Strange funny, even a little bit ha ha funny.

Anyway, one big effect of these conversations was taking what was already a fairly strong protective impulse and solidifying it into something pretty absolute that I seem to be stuck with, it's worse than useless, doesn't help me get rid of it. Nothing's going to.

I'm so sorry.

Listening to rain, drifting. Should probably go to bed.