Got to feeling so agitated thought I might start smashing things, went out for a drive instead- smoking, shaking, crying- next thing I knew I was in Chicopee. Decided it probably wasn't the safest thing to be doing, didn't have any good reason to be in Chicopee, turned around & came home again.

Still shaking, might start smashing things.

Will probably have a brandy & go out for a walk with Peretz.