OK, so, breakfast then work then Kinesics & Context & laundry. Quite an exciting day.

Rainy, gray.

Wondering why anyone would want to make me as worried as I am. Shut up & soldier on, right?

Feet hurt.

When one is very clever & highly competent it's hard for anyone, including oneself, to believe that there is something terribly wrong. Have found this to be true both of myself & of others. Slowly gotten better at recognizing the things wrong with myself, not as many obstacles to that as some face, I gather. Not everything can be fixed. It's a shame.

Talking with Chris has been very helpful, has helped clarify what I've lost, what others have lost. I would say I've gotten off easier if it weren't for how others' losses affect me. It isn't pretty.