Saw somebody I loved stuck, very unhappy about it, tried to help her get unstuck, get moving ahead with things, all of a sudden everything's moving far too quickly and smash! She's back stuck, maybe worse than before, I'm staggering about, disoriented, bleeding internally, etc. Sucks.

Such a beautiful intelligence so badly hemmed in by itself, it hurts me to think about it. It's what I'm most upset about, it's why I had to try to do something when the situation was presented to me in the first place, it's just eating me up inside. I really love her an awful lot & I'm just terribly afraid for her.

Anyway, I'm plenty hurt, but I'm not any kind of stuck.

Still can't sleep though.