'Along Came Jones' - tired of being the villain of the melodrama. Sorry, it's ridiculous.

Hard to decide whether having somebody capable of sympathetic understanding but choosing not to indulge in it is preferable to feeling straightforwardly isolated, alienated, etc. Guess it changes my perspective on what's possible, but not on what's likely. More interested in pure possibility when it comes down to it, so it's sort of a big deal, the world is very different now, more painful, but that's OK, I think. Hoping it motivates me to do something interesting.

Slowly feeling more awake.