Enough sleepless nights, crying my little heart out, really, it's getting old. Used to be able to shut myself off better, things are different now, opened the door too far, doesn't close right. Also there's the fact that I don't really want to shut myself off, would like to feel better, not dead.

Anyway, getting sick far too often, need to do something about that. Should maybe look into sleeping meds, but my experience with them is that they don't work very well and make me feel shittier than lack of sleep does. Don't really know what to do, know I need more sleep than I'm getting.

Need lots of things I'm not getting.

Funny to need things.