Being very badly hurt by someone I care deeply about while she was, to all appearances, not in her right mind has been a strange & terrible experience. Don't know what to make of it, really, so much terror overlaid on the normal hurt feelings, fear that she won't get better, fear of what she'll make of what she's done if she does. Mostly, since there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it, I've been assuming the worst things I can imagine happening will in fact happen and trying to prepare myself for them. There's not really any way to prepare for them.

So I've been having a lot of headaches. The one I'm having right now is one of the worst.

Helpless loving ball of pain. Peace & love, folks.