Very tiring day, there's music later but I think I'll likely be too tired, going to go have some Chinese with T later anyway. Strapped to the wheel of karma, thwak, thwak, thwak.

To feel able to feel sad again is a big relief, still sucks. Had the saddest dreams last night, thinking about them is making me cry now, hell. Thinking about my grandma begging to die, Sophocles, etc. Catharsis, hah.