Things have been going so badly it's been difficult to maintain my usual level of cheerful optimism, such as it is, trying hard to regain it, maybe very strong mind altering substances or a lobotomy would help, should look into it. Maybe one of those quickie lobotomies where they slip a pointy thing through the tear duct, like back in the 50s. My cheery sense of humor is slowly returning anyway, maybe that's enough.