Cold air is helping me clear my head, it's a nice change. Been doing quite a bit of self analysis, trying to be more confident in my ability to adequately respond to whatever happens, it's difficult. I generally do, but I think that may be largely because I don't expect to & overprepare. Afraid if I start to expect to, I won't. Trying to get myself to just stick to the routine of preparing myself excessively and drop the worry component. Care but no worry is what I'm shooting for, will probably fall short of the mark, but I think my aim is slowly improving. I'll keep trying.

Nightmare of last night is sticking with me, trying to see it as good company, a dark friend for dark times.